Losing my quiet time and finding something more

Story time, Josiah.

Over the past few months, you've started to resist your afternoon nap. You would say (scream) things like “I’m not tired at all” and “I don’t want to take an afternoon rest”. One Saturday evening at 6pm, literally seconds after a particularly defiant “NO daddy I'm NOT sleepy OR tired!!”, you were snoring on the couch. I’ve never seen someone go from shouting to snoring so quickly.

On another regular weeknight, you were rolling around in the dark at 11pm, blabbering and re-enacting some sequence from school. Your transition to 0 naps a day has resulted in the loss of our weeknight quiet time, which is my last chance at reading / catching up on work / watching something before I pass out.

As I wait for your battery to run out, the usual worry starts to creep in. How do I secure the best possible future for you and meimei? How do I stay healthy and be present? How can I make progress at work? How to earn more money? I've lost track of time. All I know is it’s way past your bedtime and you're still rolling around in the dark.

Then out of the blue, you say: “Mummy, I want daddy to be HAPPY!”

I hope your joy and optimism stays as you grow up to face this big world my dear boy.